One more work week down, one great weekend to look forward to

This week went by pretty fast, like most weeks.   Tuesday was mom’s birthday, so that was a weird day.  Rylan has been very grumpy and sleepy all week and it drove me crazy not know what was wrong, but thanks to Marla, I now know that he has 3 teeth coming in.  I had thought that was the problem but I kept feeling in the back where his molars were, little did I know they were up in front!  So now that I know what the problem is, maybe I can treat it!

Tomorrow is Valentine’s Day, so Happy V-day to everyone.  Last Valentine’s day was really the last time I saw and talked to my mom fully coherent.  Not really a good way to think of Valentine’s day huh?  Oh well, I’m thankful I could spent a little of my day with her last year.

We plan on trying to remodel our house soon. I’m very excited about that, it sure needs a face lift.  And it will help us when we decide to sell it.  I just dread all the work, but it will be worth it in the long run.  So we get to pick out paint and flooring, sounds like fun.

Something weird, in the past month there have been 4 people, well…’beings’ (3 people, 1 very sweet dog) that I know, pass away.  It’s just been really crazy lately.

This isn’t really a recent thing but sometimes I can’t help but notice how everyone is different.  Different ways of dealing with things, different opinions, different thoughts.  Sometimes it can be frustrating I think but other times its really interesting.  When I would handle one thing this way, some of my friends may handle it another, and with very good reason.  It’s just fun sometimes to see it. I guess a lot of it is how you were raised.  A lot of times you may think just how your parents do because they taught you to think that way.  Anyway, just something I thought I would throw in there!

Welp, I hope everyone has a great Valentine’s Day and weekend!

Dierks Bentley

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Blues

I don’t blog as much because I don’t really have anything to talk about.  My life isn’t boring by any means, I mean I have so much going on that I can’t keep steady on my feet sometimes.  But of all the things going on, it’s nothing to really talk about in detail on here.  I feel like I don’t have time to be myself and it really bothers me.  I don’t have time to do the things I like to do like take pictures, play with my son, scrapbook, read, anything like that.  It’s like I’ve lost who I am and I desperately want to get that back. Within the past 3-4 weeks, its been all about mamaw.  She was in the hospital for 2 weeks and every night I was there to visit and see what was going on.  Every night I just really wanted to go home and see my family but I knew that I needed to be at the hospital.  Now she is in the nursing home temporarily and I’m trying to get a schedule going so I don’t have to be there every night after work.  But even though I’m not there, there are other things going on, something I need to sign, papers I need to deliver, mail that needs to be checked, clothes that need to be washed so I can take them back the next day, insurance problems…..I could seriously go on.  So even though some nights I can go home and relax, I don’t because I’m constantly thinking and worrying.  That has become my life.  That is how I’ve been for the past year.  Always running, ALWAYS.  Since I’ve been that way for so long, its hard to not be that way.  Like if I have a few minutes to sit on the couch and watch TV, I feel like I need to get up and do something that needs to be done.

On a little bit lighter note, Rylan can say NO now.  As of now its usually just when he doesn’t want to eat something.  He is going through this phase where he doesn’t want to be fed from a spoon.  This drives me nuts cause I can’t think of things to feed him that he can eat by himself.  He hasn’t taken much interest in feeding himself with a spoon so until then, I need to come up with other things.  So if any of you out there know some ideas, spread the mommy knowledge!  I don’t have any new pictures of the little monster but hope to get some soon.  He gives hugs and eskimo kisses now, that’s my favorite!  Even though I don’t want him to grow up, its fun to see him learn and do new things.

The weather has been crazy this week.  They may have called schools off but they haven’t called Stonemill off!  I want it to snow to where we’re stuck and can’t go to work.  That way I wouldn’t have to try to find somebody to watch Rylan (by the way, thank you Connie for keeping him, don’t know what I’d do without you!) and I could stay at home with him myself.  But it looks like this weekend will be much like last weekend, warmer and sunny.  It was nice to shed the jacket for a couple days.

It's February...not a good month for me.

A New and Improved Rylan!

Last Saturday Krista and I took Rylan for his first haircut.  I was sad but glad at the same time because he was a shaggy mess.  A friend from daycare told me about this barber in Western Plaza and it sounded good so that’s where we went.  Everyone there was really nice and the barber who cut Ry’s hair was great.  I say great cause he managed to cut a wiggly octopus’s hair with very sharp scissors without cutting off a finger or ear!  I don’t see how he did it.  I had to stay in Rylan’s face and sing ‘Itsy Bitsy Spider’ over and over again cause at the time I couldn’t think of anything else!  They said they usually give out certificates for first haircuts but were out, so he said to remember the date and stop back by and he would give me one. 

Rylan looks like such a big boy now, I didn't know how much a haircut could make a difference!  I haven’t decided if I want to go all the way back there for his next one, I really liked it there but we’ll see.  Here are some pictures:

Before

                  

After

  

To new beginnings, cheers

Alright, it’s been over a month, bout time to write something I guess.  It’s the new year and ‘New Year’ means starting over and making the best of the next year, so that is what I intend to do.  I am determined to make this year better.  No more feeling sorry for myself, no more running around like a crazy person doing a million things all the time.  No more living in the dark.  This year, my little light is going to shine!  I have many resolutions but that pretty much sums them up.  I’m going to try and lose weight, go to church more to revive my relationship with God, I’m going to keep my house cleaner and I’m going to be happy.  So far the first few days of January have been pretty good, haven’t started all of my resolutions but intend too.

Christmas wasn’t as joyful this year, I really wanted to skip the day altogether and go on.  But that didn’t happen.  The day was full of emotion, mishaps and dread.  It was one of those days where I felt like nothing was going right and everything I touched fell apart.  Rylan seemed to have an ok day though with lots of presents.

         

 

So how about this economy huh?   Scary is the word that comes to my mind.  I’m worried about my job, probably like most people in my field.  We have no work, haven’t in a long time.  Just makes me wonder how much longer I will survive or better, how long my company will survive.  Of course I hope the best for both!  Our company is small but so far has hung on when others couldn’t, and hopefully will continue to do so throughout this mess.

 

I love keeping in touch with people, but I’m not too good at it.  I love hearing from people just to see how they are doing or what’s going on in their lives.  It’s funny cause Mom would always keep me on track with the people she knew.  Her friends and coworkers may not know it, but she always let me know the latest on what was going on.  So that is something I miss sometimes.  So any of you who may be reading, keep in touch, please J  My email is clmurphy23@gmail.com, I would love to hear from you.

 

Rylan is getting so big!  He does something new and funny everyday it seems.  He is walking really good now and even tries to run every now and then.  His laugh is so funny, you can’t help but to laugh with him.  He is doing this thing now that when he hugs you, he pats you on the back.  He still has problems out of his ears, which I had hoped would stop after getting the tubes.  Other than that, he’s just wobbling along everywhere, most of the time happily!

  

Until next time....

The Holidays

It’s been a while and I’m sorry.  How was everyone’s Thanksgiving?  Mine was ok,  I’ve had better.  This year was just weird for me.  I did enjoy my time off from work but of course it went by too fast.  Some how I  got stuck with a TON of leftovers.  Some from mamaw’s, some from Brandon’s mamaw’s and then some from Carols.  Way too much!  I am sick of Thanksgiving food, the rest is going in the trash since it’s been about a week now.  Blah! 

Friday was shopping day.  For some reason I had a difficult time deciding if I was going to get up way before daylight to go spend some money.  Before this year, I never had to decide because Mom and I would always go, usually even if we didn’t have anything particular we were going after.  So for 2 or 3 days, I fought with myself.  I know that sounds absolutely insane but I did.  Then, after a while I realized how stupid I was being and got upset.  My life has just changed. I didn’t want to be pondering if I wanted to go, I wanted to go and I wanted to go with mom, like I always have.  I want to be in the Christmas spirit because I really do love it, but I truly don’t care whether I put up a tree or not.  I want to argue with mom that I don’t need everything that she wants to get me cause she always spoiled me at Christmas.  I want to laugh with her when we talk about what we can get mamaw that she will actually like and not want to take back.  I want her to be so excited about what to get Rylan this year now that he’s a little older and plays with toys.  That is how my Christmas is going so far.  I have started on my Christmas shopping, I’m going to try and get it done early this year.  I say that every year and it never happens, but I don’t really have that much to buy.  I do need to get on my Christmas cards though….(That reminds me, #1 Jennifer, if you are reading, I wrote you back to the email address you left on here.  #2 for all of you who came to Rylan’s party, I am HORRIBLE about getting Thank You Notes done, I had every intention, just never got to it!  So Thank You everybody, I’m really glad you came and it was nice to see each of you)  

Here are some recent pictures of Rylan. 

 

  

He is walking now, still a little wobbly and clumsy but at least he’s walking.  He has learned how to scream. Loud. And in public.  You know those kids that scream in Wal-mart and you think, ‘my gosh, can those parents not control their kid?’ yeah, that’s me now.  Don’t be so harsh, it’s not their fault!  And attitude.  He has a bad one sometimes.  He can sure be sweet but he can be hateful too.

 

Just in case you don’t hear from me before Christmas, and hopefully you will, I hope everyone has a great Christmas and enjoys time with their family and friends.

Julie Roberts Photography

So, if you haven't already heard, or seen, we had pictures made by Julie Roberts.  She did a really good job and they actually turned out pretty good.  Brandon and I are the kind that hate ourselves in pictures but these were ok.  Here is the link http://www.xanga.com/julierobertsphotography and scroll down to October 29th.